Life Beyond Understanding

amen

Praise God

"Once, years ago I asked God how I could become more hungry for Him. The answer was quick and direct. I heard, “Don’t eat so much of everything else.” To thirst for the water of the Spirit of God we must stop drinking so much of everything else."

Thank you for this wise word, brother Ron! 

A completeness, a fullness - where mixture is as incompleteness, bareness ... the only "error" then in mixture would be a hindrance(perhaps like a damn) to being made whole

thats incredible - Lord allow me to drink from this stream ...

WOW !

Its a great article and as always full of truth, and I do not mean this in a mesmerizing way.  

In fact it was my practice today, lets not be childish and I asked the Lord for the living water and to guide me with His Spirit throughout the day and to teach me what to carry. When I walked down the stairs, I had a vision of a congregation applauding me when i entered my living. I thought: will I finally experience the joy of the gospel? and remembered some articles I read about prophets with good timings and bad timings embracing each other finally. I remembered the mail I had written the night before, namely last night, Friday April 9th and wondered if it had anything to do with TRIN.

I teared apart an envelop, on which I´d written yesterday on three different ocassions while playing the cello ( the Lord said go down and write something: i wrote three times, please help me to concentrate on playing the cello, cause everytime i play the cello, i feel most anger against my neighbors and start to worry, like if it is really anger against my ex projected on my neighbor and why HE always has to take the front door, while that annoys me tremendously) and i think I asked if the Lord would help me again, whilst tearing it, loving my neighbors and the courage and energy to play the cello.

Bc of the applauding congregation vision and the visit of the mom of my girlfriend, I felt encouraged to sing praises again in the morning, which I did, but .. still listening to the Lord, as in sometimes stop, bc otherwise the neighbors would start slamming doors and moving furniture again. :):) 

I also considered the fact I had now sent my mail to a different person then the last time i sent the partnerteam a mail, namely this time it was directed at the mom of Mattheus van der Steen, instead of Anda Haagen. I thought I felt led to do so and it felt right this morning to have done so. I cannot remember if I immediately switched on the tele, but I remembered the often times in which I heard names of people out of shows, before the show was actually on, So I asked: Lord, you can guide each and every step. Which channel shall it be (after having led my agenda for the Lord upstairs, and of course, i had nothing special to do today). There was a show on I´d already seen before about a exposition of Art and it was presented by a person who spoke german very well, I thought about how she´d studied her german, by school or by herself, by heart. Also I found her a bit of a funny person, bc of her glasses, it was Margriet Brandsma a Dutch reporter.

The broadcast was stopped bc of the terrible news in Poland and there was an extra additional newsbulletin, bc of this. Much to my amazement the president of the Polish government was in the plane. At this point I do not want to offend anyone, but i have asked the Lord for a special event close to the memorial day of the Holocaust and I was wondering if this was the day of the jewish memorial day I cannot remember.

It appeared not to be so, after searching this online at my laptop. The event had to do with 1940 and some 22,000 people were killed by Joseph Stalin, a person of whom, like Mao, little attention is drawn in Holland, Europe, in general, while their deeds were amongst the cruelst as well. :):) 

This remembered me of the times planes have crashed, ´coincidentally´ after writing mails to others. I remembered the Mom of Mattheus van der Steen whom I had written a rather optimistic mail, and of course my last post here on OH. Also I saw yesterday an extra post had been written on http://www.gebedsbroeders.nl - www.gebedsbroeders.nl , which mentioned the earthquake in Sumatra. I rembered the ´wage´ of the prophet (i do not know where this principle is mentioned in the bible, but it is a great principle in many ways, that the one who receives anyone in faith will receive the wage) and the fact the Lord had not told me about the event in Poland. For example, when the earthquake in Turkye was, the Lord had repeatedly brought in mind a Turkish connection from my linkedin on the same morning before knowing.

I thought about yesterday, when the mom of my girlfriend passed by. She and family in Spain had listened in faith when I told about sometimes judgment occurring. One week after last Summer, terrible explosions took place in Spain.

For me, fresh in memory, was my experience with the lady bug, and also the pillows. With the Lady Bug the Lord said, bow down, whilest sitting in the back of my garden and the lady bug came walking toward me, it felt as a great privilige (the same if with birds, which start after some guiding, basically the Lord is of course allmighty, a concept which i start to realize more fully then ever before). The pillows fell down in my bedroom while singing the first line of the song ´i bow down to you Lord Jesus´, on two different ocassions, it was the same pillow.

I remembered the confusing period leading to my divorce. Some of you remember I have had the thought I would be one of the endtime prophets.

I thought so, bc of special experiences, such as angels carrying the sun and the moon being moved, both after long times, of waiting, -knowing- the Lord would want to tell me something, aware of his holyness. I wondered often while I took the time and if had the chance to speak indeed, or wasted my time.

Now yesterday I sent an email at Miss van der Steen, the mom of Mattheus van der Steen. Their annual conference was last year, in 2009, on the 4rd (Death Memorial Day WWII) and 5th of May (Liberation Day, celebration, WWII) Heaven on Earth, in Zwolle. Also a different prophet in Holland, Josie Hagen, felt led by the Lord to do something with liberation day, during that year. The first conference I attended in 2007, was accompanied by thunder in the air in Zwolle, the Lord said ´waves of thunder´ ten minutes before the thunder started. I did not feel led to attend the opening. The second in 2008. I was not very enthusaistic, bc i was hoping for great miracles, but perhaps, i have to admit was looking for the wrong things. One good thing is I started partnering. This means a lot to me, since they pray for their partners. Prayer is essential to my life as christian. To me it is communication, though i say this with pain in my heart, bc of my divorce.   

The people from the partnerteam of TRIN know I have thought for a while I would be one of the two endtime prophets-- together with Mattheus van der Steen.

I was, and am?? a bit immature in the prophetical. Because of some events that impacted my emotional life greatly, I searched and keep on seraching the Lord. One of the words I kept hearing again and again was ´tweeling´the Dutch word for Twins. I never thought of the twintowers, till I felt led by the Lord to respond to an article written by Holly Cawfield, August 2008 in which after the writings realized the connection between twins and judgment for America. I felt not very glad to bring the message, but since I was divorced myself and bc of the loving people of OH, I felt at home.  

Well, some other events have taken place, such as the train exploding in Italy and the plane crash at the Commores, after writing a mail at David Wilkerson, exactly the day after. One topic in the mail to Mister Wilkersn was the fact that his message of urgency was dicussed on the following website in Dutch: http://www.gebedsbroeders.nl - www.gebedsbroeders.nl . The day after I responded to this message, meaning to affirm this, we had an earthquake in Italy, l´Aquila.

Yesterday I sent an update in general to the partnerteam TRIN. The people from the partnerteam are aware of the fact (what i´ve shared on this forum as well) that the grandparents of a guy by whom i felt intimidated died both within half an hour in one weekend during my stay in the psychiatric hospital.

Okay, what has this all to do with Poland. It struck me the president was a twin. Poland was ´important´ during second world war (also victimized). The plane, well before the plane crashes were ever connected to my person, in as far they could be prophetically interpreted, i had testified to seven people with whom i organized a day of repentance the Lord sometimes spoke to me by means of planes. :):) Also the twins played in a movie, in which they both stole the moon. In a sense, by the visit of the mom of my girlfriend, i was able to ignore the presence of my neighbors!!

Well, lets hope its all part of the living water. I guess i´m just tremendously curious to know whether i will ever start or ´have´ the workout of the prpohecy. I am sorry it must seem rather confusing. I have by means of telling this, shared some important way of living.

One last thing- Not long ago, I attended a meeting of Patricia Bootsma. She spoke at Youth with a Mission. Afterwards I got a mail, in which this message, an image of a kind of chicken (holy spirit) on a kind of egg was shared again, but also an image of Carla Kwakkel. She shared a vision of a dam, she received ever in Israel by a jewish lady. The dam was breathing in and out. The jewish lady compared it to the heart of the Lord beating for the jews.Some of you know ive written a message of complaint, and I´m still in progress with this, rather fatigueing process.

Before I ever had a chance read this mail, I had written on the website of http://www.gebedsbroeders.nl - www.gebedsbroeders.nl about the fact I testified on THIS website about the importance of celebrating corporate victory´s. The guy that wrote about celebrating was Matthijs Schenk, March 14, Dutch word for celebrating is ´vieren´. My respond had nothing to do with his post, but i was clearly instructed by the Lord what to write down. Besides, i had heard his name for many months before in the spirit.

In this reaction, I wrote amongst other things, about the fact that I was awake during the whole night, when in Kampen the christian family was suddenly killed by a fire. I wrote I felt very close to the Lord during that night, without knowing what was going on and my curtains were moving. It felt like the Lords heart was beating in my room- This was all before reading the mail from Dorien tHoog and Carla Kwakkel with this image. In the natural, a dam in China broke, the same weekend. :):)

Thanks Pieter for the kind words.

Ron

I forwarded the link (AND the entire two messages) to Dorien tHoog (she mailed me and quite a couple of others about a political issue, something she has never done in the three years I´ve come to know her and I DO happen have a meeting tonight with a christian Dutch political party, christenunie at Zwolle) yesterday  Perhaps useless to say (there is so much to say which is completely useless, next to the bible) I´m full of expectancy towards things to come. When I shared something about rembering to have composed a song about thirteen years back, and it was in the same message as about the universe, later it was brought to my mind, perhaps bc people prayed over it. As if the Lord composed the universe.

Also I have something joyfull to share: some people may know in the psychiatric hospital i came to know a guy, the Lord revealed me he had not passed his final exam, by providing me with the word of knowledge ´fail´. It turned out, after questioning him ´does the word -fail- mean anything to you?´, he failed to go from his vifth to his sixth grade of secondary education (in Dutch: VWO, name of schooltype, the highest of secondary education, preparation for university).When I asked him if the word ´subject´ rung a bell, it turned out he passed for geography as only subject.

This very afternoon , he gave a kind of update. He is still using medication the reason being they think he has schizoprhenia, something the psychiatrists considered me having as well for a while.

Anyway, he wants to go to church, so I´m very excited!! Also a bit tensed, that perhaps he does not want to go anymore, but the Lord reigns.  

I will suggest him to join me this Sundaymorning.