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Jess Cousineau
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Posted: 01/30/2009 at 8:54pm
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I guess this is a normal woman's issue, but I feel stuck. You know I always thought I'd get married one day when I grew up but my whole life it's like the door has been completely shut to that. Then a little over two years ago there was one day I prayed for God to send my love to me (and at the time I was thinking of this guy I hadn't seen in 8 years) and that same day I went in the living room and my dad said, "Hey, did you hear the news?" and I said, no, and he said, "___'s coming to visit tomorrow" and it was that guy I was thinking of when praying. Then he came two days after that but he was backslidden and had a serious girlfriend and after that I had to let go and I did eventually but I became very, very, very deeply chronically sad. But then the final night I was going to sleep and I had an encounter with Jesus and haven't been the same since. Then recently, the Lord gave me a beautiful promise, but at the end of the message, was the message, "Do not marry another." And now I feel hopeless. Because God led me a small group where we are mostly singles in our 20's and He is saying that I need to form meaningful friendships with men and not hope for romance. And when I started going there, the guy who teaches and the girl who's house it is at - were best friends, and I could tell they were for one another. And they recently got engaged. Which made me sooo happy for them. I know it sounds selfish and self centered, but it's like seeing my dream come true because I always thought it would be the best to marry your best friend. So that made me just so happy for them, to see that happen for someone, you know? But now I am so hopeless and have no faith I think because I don't know what God is going to do. 
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Lisa Simmons
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"Though He slay me,yet will I trust in Him..." Job 13:15
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Jess Cousineau
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Posted: 01/31/2009 at 7:36am
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Sorry. I got so upset last night I shouldn't have posted this. God said I shouldn't have said that about being so sad, He said I was just hurt. If anything my life has shown me I can trust Him, because after He tests me He does something unexpected and wonderful. And He has been the best friend I have ever had, sitting with me and talking with me whenever I needed Him, every time. And He is so patient and caring. He's being telling me He loved me since I was about 16 and I know I didn't accept His offering of His love then and I wish I did and I don't want to make that mistake again today. Today I choose to TRUST the Lord. Amen.
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Topic: loss of faith
