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Posted: 07/25/2004 at 2:50pm
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[Originally posted by Terry Bedard]
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At a time in my life when I least of all expected it
My heart was rekindled with love for a wonderful man
This totally caught me off guard and I certainly resisted it
And thought it all a stirring of my overactive imagination
And yet, undeniably, summer had revisited my heart
And I vividly recalled the joy and pain of loving another
And, oddly enough, what I’d just recently judged in others
Now crouched at my door step much to my amazement
Intellectually, none of this made any sense to me, none of it
Realistically, I knew that this situation was absolutely impossible
And, yet, looming in the shadows of my mind and of my heart
Lingered the image of this man whom I’d never even physically met
I can’t explain how it happened, however, for a brief moment in time
Our hearts touched and resonated as our spirits mounted the heights
We caught a glimpse of each another and we both joyfully smiled
We’d finally met realizing that a flame had been ignited in us both
In that moment of time, our destinies took a slight turn off course
Nothing stood in our way and our hearts reached out to the other
For an instant, a pain rose up within us knowing this would be brief
As we soared higher toward our loving Heavenly Father, a tear fell
Since then, I won’t deny that I also longed for this man physically
Even knowing I understood that those boundaries were off limits
I saw all the roadblocks and wondered why this had even happened
I’d been content for so long being single and not even desiring a man
Yet, I recognized that along one’s journey lie events which are tested
Some we’d rather fail but who wants to go ‘round the same mountain
I questioned the Lord on this one and of course it had to be His doing
Until I settled down and thought perhaps this was connected to healing
Nothing in life is a coincidence and all is within God’s Plan and Love
No matter what comes our way, it should draw us closer into God’s arms
Though at times, life appears cruel and it seems to mock us and laugh at us
As our reliance in ourselves falters, we realize whom we’d placed our trust in
And, when, the worst possible scenario which could present itself does
And we’re the players; it’s amazing how we become more understanding
We repent to God for judging others and bind that dirty old devil
Finally, comes the realization that we truly are weak in ourselves
Along the way, are pleasant surprises not to mention those which sting
I came to recognize the irony of my situation and through it all
I became more understanding of others weaknesses and downfalls
And less smug, having been exposed to the true condition of my heart
Eventually, I had to admit that it was not the devil nor was it God’s doing
Out of a beautiful experience, I shed off more flesh and dead religiosity
And I was shown sins hidden deep within the chambers of my heart
I thanked God for exposing these and for having answered my prayers
Rather than sulk, I recognized this had now become a test which I’d passed
Out of it, emerged a greater blossoming of love for God and for others
And with it, a realization that passion can be rekindled at any season in life
Fully understanding that we are but flesh and blood desperately needing God
Without God, we truly can do nothing of ourselves without stumbling along
Through Him, we can do all things for it is His strength empowering us
In our weaknesses, we are made strong through Christ Jesus; that is so true
And I will forever be learning, loving, praising and worshipping our God
The exchange between this spirit man and I will forever be treasured by me
I came close to allowing my soul to take control, even if only in my thoughts
Assuredly, I’ll always remember this; yet I’ve surrendered it all to God
Today, I’m more trusting of My Father because He was there through it all
What took place, I will never fully understand and so I leave it with God
Through it, a greater appreciation and grasp of life and love have resulted
Despite that my heart has been hurt; it has also been renewed and livened
In the end, it’s all been worth it to repent, love unselfishly and to surrender
I know that I now embark on a new enriching relationship with our Beloved
My future is bright even knowing undergoing the cleansing process is no fun
However, the reward is well worth it despite the pain which one experiences
To behold our First Love with an exchange of love we can share with Him only
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Topic: Poem Entitled "IGNITED"
